Today I have been feeling major guilt about not being able to accomplish everything in life that is wanted and needed. It always feels like something has to give. I do hope that I am not the only person that feels this way. Some may feel, then why are you wasting time in your blog. For me this is our journal that reminds me of things that we do in our family. I print my blog and keep in binders for each kid and myself. I know I can’t do everything. Today I was cleaning out the guest room for Grammy to come visit in that room I have my scrapbook supplies. I found Brody’s 5x7 year book and when I opened it, I had major guilt because it was only updated to 6 months. This should be the easiest the scrapbook was completed before Brody was born and all I had to do was put a picture from each month on the page. Gavin has 2 huge books of pictures, Brody has none. I did start to digital scrapbook to save me time and to give to the kids, but I wanted a real scrapbook for myself. So how do you decide what is priority? Right now school is priority and will probably be for 2 years. Next, I have been working on myself staying in shape and now with being pregnant needing time to rest. Being pregnant is probably why I have more guilt because I have been tired and not doing as much as usual. If I start to feel like other areas in my life are failing then I work on that and other things start to go down. My house and yard usually suffer, this month after a letter from HOA to help me decide that I need to give attention to those areas. Trees and bushes need to be trimmed. I want a garden and I have planted twice now and those little seeds are just not growing. I never want my kids to feel like they are not getting enough attention, but I do not do as much as I used to do when Gavin was small as far as crafts, parks, and entertainment in general. I am hoping that this area will approve now that the weather is cooling down. My parents are a huge help and so is Chris so I would think that I would be able to get more accomplished. I am very excited for my vacation coming up even though this will not help me get anything done, but I do feel like I need a much needed break. Luckily, I get a three-week break from school that will help me get some extra things done. Except I have a huge five hour teacher test that I do not have time to study for and I just really hope that I can at least pass. Anyway just trying to write out my stresses so I can hopefully figure something out.
5 comments:
I didn't relize you were so stressed. I better help out more. Love you, Mom
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels overwhelmed sometimes. Regardless, you still make me look bad. :) When do you want the boys to come play this week?
I am sorry you are feeling that way I don't know how i missed all your posts so i am back tracking! Well your number one priority should be you and that little baby you are taking care of 24/7 (the one in your belly! ha ha ha) your second priority should be your children and husband then everthing else is last! If the house work falls that is ok! I hope you are doing better! I love you, and you are always someone i look up to on all the things you do (you do a lot!), I think you are great!
Helena, you're awesome! :)
I'm totally with you! And I'm not even going to school. It's hard to figure out what to work on first. There's just too much with kids, house, work, church, school.....scrapbooks :) Just put the Lord first and everything will fall into place. I've been learning that lately with my scripture study. I agree with Sym though. You're awesome! And you can do it! We love you guys!
Post a Comment